dont know how long i can keep pretending and lying to myself and everybody.

there is one pretty ugly part of me that i want to hide forever, from people and myself. i did hide, and got it hidden so well for this semester.

but somehow i think i've come to my limit and i cant just leave my bad emotion alone, and ignore their existance anymore. they are coming up all the time.

i do hope i would not affect any of my friends in a bad way. but if i did, please forgive me ar!

may sun shine.

 

LISTEN!! YOU SON OF A BITCH!!

GOD IS MY WITNESS!!

IF YOU GOT MY MUM KILLED, I WOULD MAKE YOU PAY, HEAVILY!!

NOW, YOU GOT MY DAD, YOU ARE RUININNG MY FAMILY, TEARING IT APART!

AND YOU ARE RUINING MY FUTURE, AND LEFT ME TONS OF DEBT, WHICH SHOULD BE YOURS.

YOU KNOW WHAT? I DONT CARE ANYMORE!

I DONT CARE FOR A FUTURE! I DONT CARE FOR HAPPINESS! I DONT CARE FOR WHAT THE SOCIETY THINK!

I SWEAR!

 IF YOU DARE HURT MY FAMILY ANY MORE, I WOULD MAKE YOU PAY, AT ANY COST!

TELL YOU WHAT, IM NOT SCARE OF DEATH. COZ I DONT DESERVE TO LIVE WHEN MY MUM IS IN LIVE HELL.

 

I WOULD NEVER FIRGIVE YOU, THOUGH I THOUGHT I WOULD THREE DAYS AGO.

I CAN UNDERSTAND UR GREED. BUT GREED IS NOT A SUFFICIENT REASON FOR YOU TO KILL AND RUIN YOUR LIFELONG FRIEND'S FAMILY!

I HATE YOU!

I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME HATE MY DAD! HATE MY FAMILY NAME! HATE MY BLOOD!

I'LL SURVIVE EVEN THERE'S ONLY ME IN THE WORLD. I WONT DIE THAT EASILY LIKE MY DAD.

YOU'LL SEE.

F*CK THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!